During the period that I was struggling with the loss of my sight, I started to write poems. I had this need to write down my thoughts and feelings, and very surprisingly they took form as poems. (I had never been writing poems earlier!)
Later on I have self-published this collection of poems as a little book. It is in Finnish, but I'm planning to translate it into English. The name of the bundle is 'Vuoden asiakas', 'Client of the year'. If you would be interested in reading it, let me know!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Change
Today has been quite a significant day for me, a day I knew was coming sooner or later. I have started injecting insuline after two years of tablet medication for my diabetes. Supposedly my life will be a little less free from now on... Eating, testing my blood sugar and medication have to be controlled even more strict than until now.
Not that I'm sad or in low spirits though. Actually, it's the opposite: I'm kind of relieved and pleased that the decision has been made. No more stress whether the tablets have worked enough or what is my doctor going to say this time...
Now I'm learning to live with the new situation and hoping that the new medication will also help my eyes' condition stay stable. It's a bit exciting to see how long it will take to find the right dosage for me, and to get used to the different routines. Well, my life is certainly not monotonous or dull!
Not that I'm sad or in low spirits though. Actually, it's the opposite: I'm kind of relieved and pleased that the decision has been made. No more stress whether the tablets have worked enough or what is my doctor going to say this time...
Now I'm learning to live with the new situation and hoping that the new medication will also help my eyes' condition stay stable. It's a bit exciting to see how long it will take to find the right dosage for me, and to get used to the different routines. Well, my life is certainly not monotonous or dull!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Happiness is...
...my pair of 'Reino' slippers beside a clearly larger pair in the hall.
...all the toy cars parked very neatly by a little guest in our livingroom :)
...you pushing me in the back when we bike against the wind.
...the smell of spring after a long and cold winter. Summer is not that far anymore!
...watching and listening to birds together. I always learn something new from you.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Monday, November 30, 2009
Something Blue
Are you superstitious?
The groom is not allowed to see the wedding dress of the bride before the real moment. That would bring bad luck. More than in bad luck I believe that it is simply a nice habit to keep the dress a secret and a surprise until the wedding day.
Then the old tradition of wearing something old, new, borrowed and blue. You have to follow this "rule", at least I do! I will have mom's old ring, a new dress, earrings of my maid of honor. But something blue is still missing. Let's see what I will come up with... Definitely no blue garter for me, I want something more original. I think I'll slip something blue in my shoe just like my mom did.
On my wedding day I'll also be wearing pearls. A friend of mine says she would never use pearls because they predict tears. Well, one thing I know for sure is that there will be plenty of tears that day!
Despite, I'm not afraid of tears. Praying that they will be the ones of happiness and affection also in the future.
The groom is not allowed to see the wedding dress of the bride before the real moment. That would bring bad luck. More than in bad luck I believe that it is simply a nice habit to keep the dress a secret and a surprise until the wedding day.
Then the old tradition of wearing something old, new, borrowed and blue. You have to follow this "rule", at least I do! I will have mom's old ring, a new dress, earrings of my maid of honor. But something blue is still missing. Let's see what I will come up with... Definitely no blue garter for me, I want something more original. I think I'll slip something blue in my shoe just like my mom did.
On my wedding day I'll also be wearing pearls. A friend of mine says she would never use pearls because they predict tears. Well, one thing I know for sure is that there will be plenty of tears that day!
Despite, I'm not afraid of tears. Praying that they will be the ones of happiness and affection also in the future.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
More Than 220 Million People...
...in the world have diabetes, according to the WHO. There is still a lot of work to be done in raising awareness about the illness. Diabetes could often be prevented.
Based on my personal experience I think that far more frightening than diabetes itself are the possible complications caused by it. Education projects are really needed.
Today is the annual World Diabetes Day for the 19th time.
Based on my personal experience I think that far more frightening than diabetes itself are the possible complications caused by it. Education projects are really needed.
Today is the annual World Diabetes Day for the 19th time.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Soul Searching
"There is nothing wrong in feeling empty... Nothing new could ever emerge without first having an empty space... Long live the emptiness - it always means change, process, life!" These freely translated words are from a book that I'm currently reading, written by my favourite Finnish author and poet Aila Meriluoto.
Emptiness is something I'm dealing with at the moment. Some days I feel it stronger than the others, but it is there all the time: room for something new. I'm trying to find answers to some important questions, mostly related to work.
Before I can start working again, various doctors are going to take a look at my case and give their meaning on my possibilities (read: physical ability i.e. my vision) to work. My own eye doctor (or ophthalmologist as it officially should be said) naturally knows my situation the best, but there is a big question mark hanging over my dream of a career: nobody can forecast how the health of my eyes will develop.
Recently the condition of my eyes has been stable and my sight is rather good at the moment. Still, retinopathy cannot be cured and it is a very unpredictable disease. That is why I need to go trough several exams before even trying to start in a new job.
The process of re-integration to work has started but it will take a while before it is clear what and how much I can do. For myself it is absolutely clear that I want to work again. Even a thought of life without work feels horrible. Work is such an important part of one's life and identity, so much more than just a source of income. I need to be a part of a group!
I'm forced to spend a lot of time thinking what I would really want to do. And that's good, I'm learning to understand how much work really means to me. Although a 40-hour working week will probably never be possible for me again, I believe I'll find a meaningful position in working life, a place of my very own.
Emptiness is something I'm dealing with at the moment. Some days I feel it stronger than the others, but it is there all the time: room for something new. I'm trying to find answers to some important questions, mostly related to work.
Before I can start working again, various doctors are going to take a look at my case and give their meaning on my possibilities (read: physical ability i.e. my vision) to work. My own eye doctor (or ophthalmologist as it officially should be said) naturally knows my situation the best, but there is a big question mark hanging over my dream of a career: nobody can forecast how the health of my eyes will develop.
Recently the condition of my eyes has been stable and my sight is rather good at the moment. Still, retinopathy cannot be cured and it is a very unpredictable disease. That is why I need to go trough several exams before even trying to start in a new job.
The process of re-integration to work has started but it will take a while before it is clear what and how much I can do. For myself it is absolutely clear that I want to work again. Even a thought of life without work feels horrible. Work is such an important part of one's life and identity, so much more than just a source of income. I need to be a part of a group!
I'm forced to spend a lot of time thinking what I would really want to do. And that's good, I'm learning to understand how much work really means to me. Although a 40-hour working week will probably never be possible for me again, I believe I'll find a meaningful position in working life, a place of my very own.
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